Stealer of my Heart

Dear Alivia Grace,

     I love you so much. I know you are small right now, but you will grow up very fast.  You are already 1 year old. Not to mention Sunday you will be 13 months old already. WOW does time fly. I know the years will fly just as fast with you as they did with your mother. Looking at you I see so many things that she did when she was your age. I really love being able to see you grow and change it brings back such fond memories for me and of course it's making new ones for you and I.  I love our cuddle times. I love the kisses you give me and your hugs are the very best. You squeeze my neck ..its so cute! I just love it. 

   

     You are asleep right now, so I can just stand over your pack-n-play and watch you as you sleep. You are so angelic. You are a gift from God in heaven. God sent you down here to me because he knew I would need you. You came exactly at the right moment! God is so good. Your papaw Ed (great grandpa) went to heaven June 28, 2013 and then we found out that you would be here June 2014 (we found out your mommy was going to have you in October) Just the right time, I was having a hard time because I was really missing my daddy, your great papaw Ed, You were the perfect thing to keep me occupied! I was now busy thinking of a baby shower for your mommy. We were also busy making things here at the house ready for your arrival. I am so glad you got here EXACTLY on time.  You were born June 5 and the one year anniversary of daddy's heaven going was June 28 ...I was so busy helping mommy & daddy with you that I didn't have time to be sad. Of course I do still miss my daddy (and my mamma) but now I have a very BEAUTIFUL little granddaughter to keep me busy. 

I love you so much, 

MUCH LOVE & KISSES, 

Grandma Fuqua

The rest of the blog.    Feelings Today

 My grandmother always told me how fast time flies by and I believed her but the older I get the more it seems true! Time just flies by day after day ...The years just pass so quickly anymore. Aaron is now 27, Amber 25 and Jordan 23 I can't believe they are getting so old. What happened my babies! They are grown and now having families of their own. 

I remember trying to tell myself at each stage of their lives "ENJOY THIS because soon it will be over" Oh yes there were times I would be ready to pull my hair out ...thinking are we all going to live through this stage. Looking back it wasn't really anything "big" but at the time it seems almost like the end of the world. ha ha ha

That is just some of my feelings about my little Alivia. I still miss my mom and dad so very much. There is not one day that I don't think of them and miss them but now I have someone to fill some of that hole in my heart. 

SMILES,

~~ Tracy (Alivia's Grandma) 

Alivia Grace's First Valentine

Thursday, February 13, 2014



Dear Alivia
  Grandma loves you so much and I've not even seen you or touched your beautiful face. I have not even heard your sweet little voice or cry. I can't express the depth of love I have for you. I can not wait to hold and love you. You are so precious to me. I love to watch your mother and father coo and goo over you ha ha ha. They are already so in love with you. God has blessed our family so greatly with allowing us to care for you. I can't wait to take you to church with me so you can learn of my wonderful Lord and Savior. I can't wait to teach you the stories of the bible and songs like "Jesus Loves You!"  You are already Grandma's angel sent from above. My blessing from my Lord. I am so thankful for you. I can't wait to hug and kiss your little baby face, fingers and toes.
   I love you little one and want you to know how much you are loved and wanted!  You are a precious blessing sent to us from heaven above. I love you so much Alivia Grace Harmon. Grandma can't wait to hold you and shower you with love. Hugs and Kisses from your grandma

                                          

 Love Grandma

 

New Grandbaby

Dear Grandbaby,
   Grandma wants to tell you how much "I love you" I can not wait until I am able to hold you in my arms. I can't wait to hug and kiss you. I want to hold you, love you and kiss you all over. I know your mom and daddy are so excited to see you too. Your mommy has already felt you kick inside her. When I laugh you begin to move around too. I love you so much and you are still in your mommy's belly
     I love you, I love you, I love you! That doesn't really say all I want to tell you but I really don't have the words to say the depth of my love for you. I was so excited when I heard that your mother was having you. I talk to you everyday. I hold you "kind of" through your mommy's belly.  I have to go now b/c I'm working on the invitations for your gender reveal party. I love you
Love, Grandma

Another Love Letter for Jordan

Dear Jordan,

    I love you so much. I also want to tell you I am so proud of you. Thank-you so much for all your help with grandpa. You made your grandpa proud. I know it was hard and it has been very hard for us since grandpa is gone but we have a lot of memories of us playing and laughing. So many memories of grandpa of getting us killed in wow. Memories of him driving off of the cliffs and getting us killed. We all laughed so hard some times. He loved it when we all played wow together. I hate it that we didn't make it to Las Vegas  but  you and I will go and meet chill. We will do it in memory of grandpa. He will be right there with us in spirit. I know grandpa is looking down and he sees how good you are doing at keeping the vehicles going and the work you are doing around the house too.
     I know we have had our good times and bad but I want you to know how proud I am of you.  You are my hard little worker that used to work so hard outside with his pa. You wanted to be out working the minute you got up. You loved trimming trees, cutting grass and making the yard look nice. I am so happy with all the things you are doing to help. I know I could not do it without you.  I love you so much!

Another Love Letter for Amber

Dear Amber,
     I just want to say "I love you"  I also want to tell you how much I appreciate your help during the last few weeks with Grandpa. I know he loved having you close. He loved spending time with his family especially his grandchildren. He loved you so much because you were his only granddaughter. I think he loved dancing with you at your wedding, I am glad that he was able to do that for you. I am so glad that you have that memory. I know the older you get the more precious that will be. I want to make some love letters to you from me so you will be able to read how much I love you. I am putting this in a digital format so you won't have all the clutter of a bunch of paper. I will make a few handwritten letters too but only a few. I would like to make a scrapbook for you three kids. Actually I want make one for each of you. I don't know how soon I will get it done. I want to get to work on it soon b/c you never know when something may happen to me. I want to be around with you children for a long time but we never know.
     I also want to assure you children that I have accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior. I was a little girl attending Trinity. Marilyn Wolfe was my Sunday school teacher. Her daughter Cheryl went to some place as a missionary with several teens. When she came back Marilyn had her class to her house for a Bible study. I remember Cheryl inviting us to ask Jesus into our hearts to save us from Hell. I remember that I was afraid I would die before I could ask Jesus to save me.(I remember that instant I knew I was LOST) I asked Jesus to be my savior and save me from hell. I know I have not been the best example for you. I sure wish I would have done a better job. I would love to see all my children attending church regularly and being a good servant for Christ. That is my prayer for all of you that you serve God.

Another Love Letter for Aaron

Dear Aaron,
     I want to tell you how much I love you. I am so glad that you came back to see Grandpa before he died. I know it made him very happy. He loved spending time with you kids. He loved playing games with you. I don't think it mattered to him what you did together as long as you spent time together. He loved being with his family.
     I want you kids to have videos of me telling you I love you as well as letters from me. I will post these but I will write out some too so you will have some that you could touch. I like to find things with mother's handwriting. I am putting most of these online so you won't have clutter but you will have a record of them. I will also scan a few that I write out long hand that way if they would get lost you would have record too. I am planning on doing that at least. I will try to work around my ADD and get this done but it may take some time and I am not sure of the quality of these letters but I hope you like them. They will become more precious as time goes by. (at least that is what I find to be the case since my mother and now father are in heaven) My granny has been gone since I was 16 and I wish I could find some of the birthday cards that she sent to me or anything with her writing. I loved my granny so much (like you with your "little" grandma) I was the oldest grandchild too. Not that she loved me more than the others but it was a little different. We love our kids/grandkids equally but you love them each a little different. I am not sure if that makes sense or not.  You are my first born, I love you; Amber is my only girl, I love her; and Jordan well he is the baby, I love him too. I have went through different situations with each of you which makes you all different and special. 

Letters From Mother with Love

Aaron, Amber & Jordan, This is for you to look back on and have written words from me to express how I feel. I love you all so very much. I wish I had something of my mother's written to me saying she loved me! This is digital letters to you, I plan on writing hand written ones as well that you will be able to hold and see my penmanship. I want to make videos for you to have as well.  I know that is what is getting me through this grief in the loss of my daddy.  It has only been six weeks and I am not doing too well, so this is to help me get through this time and help you when the time comes for you to go through it.

I love you Aaron, You were my first child. I almost lost you right after you arrived. God was good and decided to let you stay with me. To allow me to raise you. To teach you to be a fine young man. You are doing a wonderful job and I know I am very proud of all you have accomplished.

To Amber, I love you so much. You are my "little" girl you are my only girl. You have blossomed into a beautiful young woman. I love you to the moon and back!  I am very proud of you as well, you have graduated high school as well as trade school to learn to cut/style and color hair. I am so happy you are doing what you love. They say get paid for doing what you love & you will never work another day in your life.

Finally to my Jordan, wow we have had some good times and some bad, even some really rocky but I LOVE YOU! I wish I could take this hurt from you. (but to do that I would have to take all the precious memories that you have) with that said, keep your memories & struggle through this difficult time knowing how much I love you


I will post this now as a beginning and I will work on the format later. I think most of these letters will be to you individually, at least that is what I'm thinking. I want you to have this record of my thoughts each day, as well as things I want to say to each of you! I really want several hard copy letters & cards for you as well, but I know that would be a lot of extra clutter so not sure ???? I LOVE YOU ALL!
Love, MOM

 

Here is the first video "I love you"