Another Love Letter for Aaron

Dear Aaron,
     I want to tell you how much I love you. I am so glad that you came back to see Grandpa before he died. I know it made him very happy. He loved spending time with you kids. He loved playing games with you. I don't think it mattered to him what you did together as long as you spent time together. He loved being with his family.
     I want you kids to have videos of me telling you I love you as well as letters from me. I will post these but I will write out some too so you will have some that you could touch. I like to find things with mother's handwriting. I am putting most of these online so you won't have clutter but you will have a record of them. I will also scan a few that I write out long hand that way if they would get lost you would have record too. I am planning on doing that at least. I will try to work around my ADD and get this done but it may take some time and I am not sure of the quality of these letters but I hope you like them. They will become more precious as time goes by. (at least that is what I find to be the case since my mother and now father are in heaven) My granny has been gone since I was 16 and I wish I could find some of the birthday cards that she sent to me or anything with her writing. I loved my granny so much (like you with your "little" grandma) I was the oldest grandchild too. Not that she loved me more than the others but it was a little different. We love our kids/grandkids equally but you love them each a little different. I am not sure if that makes sense or not.  You are my first born, I love you; Amber is my only girl, I love her; and Jordan well he is the baby, I love him too. I have went through different situations with each of you which makes you all different and special. 

Letters From Mother with Love

Aaron, Amber & Jordan, This is for you to look back on and have written words from me to express how I feel. I love you all so very much. I wish I had something of my mother's written to me saying she loved me! This is digital letters to you, I plan on writing hand written ones as well that you will be able to hold and see my penmanship. I want to make videos for you to have as well.  I know that is what is getting me through this grief in the loss of my daddy.  It has only been six weeks and I am not doing too well, so this is to help me get through this time and help you when the time comes for you to go through it.

I love you Aaron, You were my first child. I almost lost you right after you arrived. God was good and decided to let you stay with me. To allow me to raise you. To teach you to be a fine young man. You are doing a wonderful job and I know I am very proud of all you have accomplished.

To Amber, I love you so much. You are my "little" girl you are my only girl. You have blossomed into a beautiful young woman. I love you to the moon and back!  I am very proud of you as well, you have graduated high school as well as trade school to learn to cut/style and color hair. I am so happy you are doing what you love. They say get paid for doing what you love & you will never work another day in your life.

Finally to my Jordan, wow we have had some good times and some bad, even some really rocky but I LOVE YOU! I wish I could take this hurt from you. (but to do that I would have to take all the precious memories that you have) with that said, keep your memories & struggle through this difficult time knowing how much I love you


I will post this now as a beginning and I will work on the format later. I think most of these letters will be to you individually, at least that is what I'm thinking. I want you to have this record of my thoughts each day, as well as things I want to say to each of you! I really want several hard copy letters & cards for you as well, but I know that would be a lot of extra clutter so not sure ???? I LOVE YOU ALL!
Love, MOM

 

Here is the first video "I love you"